Something Different

It seems that I’m always looking for something different

Yet something that stays the same

Something that doesn’t change

Because there are too many things in this world that change unexpectedly

I’m tired of finding the same holes in everything I try

I need something that supplies joy for longer than the moment

Something that doesn’t leave me hanging in life’s tragedies

Something real that doesn’t leave me feeling totally alone

Something different

I’m willing to change

But I need reassurance that I won’t fall back on my face

There’s too much pain that comes with all my attempts at happiness

None of which have worked out

Everything that I try leaves me stranded

I always end up feeling empty

I always end up feeling alone

I need something that I can depend on

I need something different

The answer could be money, but I know that money doesn’t bring happiness

The answer could be friends, but I’ve had friends that let me down

The answer could be possessions, but I’ve tried all that before

I need something different

But I heard about something, or should I say Someone, that I hadn’t heard about before

Someone that’s supposed to be the Savior of the world

If there is such a thing

But I’ve tried everything else

Nothing seems to last

Maybe this is the answer

I’ve heard that all I have to do is ask and He’ll “come into my heart”

And he’ll be a friend that will always be with me

It just seems hard to believe

But wouldn’t that be cool if that was the answer

To have a friend to turn to through all of life’s struggles

To have this emptiness filled with something real

To find love and hope when I feel alone and hopeless

Wouldn’t that be awesome?!

This needs to work because I’m at the end of my rope

It seems to work for some others

Could this be the difference maker?

Could Jesus be the answer?

I just don’t want to get hurt again

I’ve taken chances on other things

But this feels different

This feels safer

I’ve never really tried this before

I think I’m ready

I think I’m ready to try for something different

To see if I can find meaning in the struggles of life

To see if Jesus could be the one I’ve been looking for all along

To let Jesus become the center of my life

To let Jesus be

Something different